Drama Addiction? There is hope!

Published on August 22, 2011

I think I have been in withdrawal. No kidding.

I was literally just thinking while in the shower (yes, that is where I think best) and it occurred to me that my life is really good right now. For the first time in many years, I feel grounded, accomplished, settled, content. Of course, I still have goals and things I want to do...a purpose to fulfill.

What I mean is that there is no DRAMA in my life. I am not dealing with a job I hate, people that drive me crazy, family issues, kid issues, illness, financial setbacks, unrealistic demands on my body, or general "craziness" that seems to have been such a big part of my life for so long.

A couple weeks ago one of my favorite health coaches, Leah Lund, was a guest speaker on a group call I do on health and wellness. She talked about how our body responds to prolonged stress and about cortisol levels and such. I started thinking... I have literally lived on pure drama for the past ?? years. Well, for as long as I can remember!  I have been striving and stressing and going going going and now... down time is something unfamiliar.

Peacefulness is a little scary.

I want to like it. No, really, I do! Interestingly though, I noticed on the phone yesterday with my dad that I even made an attempt to stir up some family drama... I tried to talk about my brother who has always proven to be an easy topic for inciting drama. I caught myself in the midst of it and thought, "What the heck... how is talking about this good for anyone?" So we changed the subject.

In my years of coaching and leading, I have known many people who literally thrived on drama. The were the family “peacemakers,” the office fixers, the relationship experts for all their friends, etc. These wonderful and well meaning people were often frazzled, exhausted, frustrated, disillusioned, and frankly... lost. They frequently admitted not taking care of themselves and more times than not, they wouldn’t have even known how to if they had tried. Maybe you can relate!

It occurs to me now...  these were symptoms of this addiction to drama. 

A while back I made a commitment to take care of myself better and to live a more balanced life. As a result, I have been focused on my spiritual journey and have been studying authors such as Wayne Dyer, Marianne Williamson, John Maxwell, Tony Robbins, and others. I have gone deep into some reading and spiritual studies that I never knew existed and were never discussed in my upbringing for sure or even my extensive (and expensive) educational endeavors.

The Bible was the only book that I knew from a spiritual perspective and frankly, I didn’t “get it” nor could anyone seem to help me “get it.”

As a result of my getting closer to “getting it” ... I have found a peace in my life and a sense of contentment that I have never experienced before (that I know of). My two kids are grown and on their own and it is just me, my amazing and patient husband, and my forever faithful 13 year old dog, Digger. Some days I don't know what to do with my time and energy.  I work. I socialize. I do fun things. But if drama isn't present, I just feel ... well, awkward. Bored... like something is missing.

Some days I think I have experienced "drama tremors" and started drumming some drama up in order to normalize and get my fix! 
Heaven forbid that I just enjoy life, take care of my body, do my work, and love people. Actually Heaven is just fine with it... it's that darn ego that needs to be involved in all the worldly business that keeps rearing it’s ugly head!

It makes me wonder how many others share in my addiction. How many others out there like me think that the drama is “normal” and that the peace is what is weird or uncomfortable?

I am choosing peace. I am choosing love. And I am choosing Spirit over ego. I am willing to learn a new way of living despite the pain of drama withdrawal that sometimes shows up.

My intention is to be mindful of the cravings for drama and to stop them before they turn into a full blown "relapse."

And I am committed to helping others see that there is hope! I will use my online journal, prayer, and meditation to do this and I will be honest about my addictive behaviors and ask for support. It feels good to know that I can choose peace over any other negative feeling or space in my life.

The blessings in my life are real and they are rich and I am forever grateful to the people in my life who have helped me to see that all I need to be is ME.

I am perfect in God’s eyes and I need nothing more. Drama be gone! And so it is done.

If you would like to join me in this journey to be DRAMA FREE, I would love to hear from you! If you want a personal guide, let’s talk about coaching. If you need a place to document your thoughts and get support, sign up for a free online journal at TopSide. And if you just need a prayer, email me! I am here for you!

You can do it... give it up to your Higher Power, have faith, and stay the course!

 

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